I Still Own a Bakery!

And other things from the past few months.

These past few months have simultaneously passed within a blink of an eye, and February seems like it was eons ago. Since I hosted my housewarming I’ve done 2 pop ups, filled several orders, and expanded my social media reach by a few hundred followers (which means a lot to me since it’s really the only way to expand my clientele! - don’t worry, pictures to follow).

Since then I’ve learned so much about exactly what it is I want out of my bakery (or at least, what I think I do), myself as a person, and most importantly, my limits. I’m the type of person to push myself past the point of exhaustion to ensure I can make it to social obligations - including things like travels, events, etc. I have a really hard time saying no to things sometimes, and then I feel exhausted for weeks on end, because I’m unable to recover. I know, the answer seems so obvious, like GIRL SIT DOWN WTF?? But, I’m learning, and growing.

My inability to say no is also rooted in a deep fear of missing out on opportunities, connections, and engagement. What if I meet someone who wants to place an order, and then their friends will want to place an order? What if I meet my future husband? What if I meet my favorite baker and we connect? My ADHD brain is not trained for owning my own business. When I’m feeling weary and frazzled from thinking all these thoughts and deciding between yes or no, I lean into the wise words of

Alex Elle

(the following is a summary of her teachings!) “trust that what is meant for you cannot miss you, and lean into the divine timing of your life.” Then I reflect on my life and realize - it’s so true! Why am I so worried all the time about ‘missing opportunities’, when in reality - they will absolutely show up again.

I know most of you are here for recipes on baked goods and musing about my bakery, but this is something that’s been weighing on me heavily, as I think about how I want to scale my bakery up, and really leaning into things full throttle, 100%, all in. I’ve always held on to a small piece of security in case things don’t work out with previous projects. Now, with all the uncertainty in this world, why not fully lean into what brings me true joy? If you can’t tell, I’m really trying to lean fully into manifesting, and being delulu is the solulu!

Here are some pictures from the past few months, scenes from my pop-up, and other cakes and bakes! Thank you all for being here with me, despite my inconsistency in writing (although I did warn y’all about that beforehand lolol).